Disappointment

Exhaustion begins to settle the desire for something greater, something more than waiting until they appear or perhaps they are already here, but my lack of knowledge ;of their existence ; makes it all that difficult. How can one truly prepare for the unknown, without a stitch of knowledge, a single clue, and to get ones hopes up so early, time and time again would merely be cruel. Once was death twice would be murder or perhaps suicide if you, yourself let this be. So you see  not much can be done other than to sit around and wait, which is pain on its own. This, and this yes, this is where it begins
Exhaustion beginning to settle. Death is left to follow.

Letting ones self down.
Mystique